I hope we can be witnesses through this. That others can feel our faith, see Jesus in us, learn from us - in this situation and in our lives from here on out. I pray that God is glorified through this.
We have felt God in such a tangible way over the past several months. Since March 1 to be exact. In heartache and pain comes a huge blessing for us. We can't see the big picture. Many things are confusing and don't make sense to us but we have faith that God has a plan, a perfect plan.
I pray tonight that these recent events change me forever. That I never forget who is in control.
Anyone who knows me well (or probably even briefly meets me ha!) knows I am obsessed with germs. I'm scared to death we will get sick. I am quite literally a walking Clorox wipe. I am most definately OCD. Not in the way people joke about it, but in a way where it is paralyzing at times. It's not funny at all really, even though I joke about it. It affects every area of my life.
Through Mark's heart condition, I thought, ok I can't control this. I didn't cause this. I couldn't have prevented this. Maybe God is teaching me a lesson in control.
Well, I now know for sure that God is commanding me to LET IT GO! He's screaming, TRUST ME!
Zach has warts. Hundreds of them. It's a virus that's common in kids but his case is extreme and lasting way longer than normal (over a year!). Now Mark, who hasn't ever even been in a public place (except for dr appointments), has ringworm. What?! It's now undeniable that I have got to let it go. No amount of hand washing, wiping, sanitizing, can off set God's plan.
It's easier said than done... But I am trying so hard.
I have to let go of my control issues to be more like Jesus, my ultimate goal.
I am so far from that but I pray that I will never stop trying.