I hope we can be witnesses through this. That others can feel our faith, see Jesus in us, learn from us - in this situation and in our lives from here on out. I pray that God is glorified through this.
We have felt God in such a tangible way over the past several months. Since March 1 to be exact. In heartache and pain comes a huge blessing for us. We can't see the big picture. Many things are confusing and don't make sense to us but we have faith that God has a plan, a perfect plan.
I pray tonight that these recent events change me forever. That I never forget who is in control.
Anyone who knows me well (or probably even briefly meets me ha!) knows I am obsessed with germs. I'm scared to death we will get sick. I am quite literally a walking Clorox wipe. I am most definately OCD. Not in the way people joke about it, but in a way where it is paralyzing at times. It's not funny at all really, even though I joke about it. It affects every area of my life.
Through Mark's heart condition, I thought, ok I can't control this. I didn't cause this. I couldn't have prevented this. Maybe God is teaching me a lesson in control.
Well, I now know for sure that God is commanding me to LET IT GO! He's screaming, TRUST ME!
Zach has warts. Hundreds of them. It's a virus that's common in kids but his case is extreme and lasting way longer than normal (over a year!). Now Mark, who hasn't ever even been in a public place (except for dr appointments), has ringworm. What?! It's now undeniable that I have got to let it go. No amount of hand washing, wiping, sanitizing, can off set God's plan.
It's easier said than done... But I am trying so hard.
I have to let go of my control issues to be more like Jesus, my ultimate goal.
I am so far from that but I pray that I will never stop trying.
We are seeing your faith. Seeing Jesus in you! Praying for all of you!
ReplyDeleteYou truly are an amazing strong woman! Your parents raised you right! I'm so sorry your family is going through this. Your strong faith has touch me and a lot of people that don't even know you. I have been praying for you, David, Zach and baby Mark. I know these are difficult times but you and your family will pull through it. You guys are in the best hands, God's!!!
ReplyDeleteLiz, I am constantly impressed by your perspective through this trial. To have your sweet, innocent baby go through this is something nobody wants to do. I was reading 1 Peter 4:12-13 last night and thought you of. It says, "Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed." And we know that in His own way that we can't understand, Christ is revealing his glory through Mark's illness. I love you and I am so thankful to have such a wonderful older sister to look up to still ;) - Mer
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